Existentialism

I don’t think I’m much of an existentialist. I mean, it’s cool to think about and all, but I just don’t understand how some people can be so… negative. But really, I’m an atheist, and it looks like most existentialist views are similar to those of an atheist…i.e. something coming from nothing, having no purpose, etc. I just feel like people do have a purpose, but they create it themselves. I’m a huge nurture person in the whole “nature vs. nurture” debate. I think your environment shapes you into the person that you are. From that, you develop your purpose. You figure out what you’re good at, and more so, what you enjoy, and you run with it. That’s what a purpose is… something that affects both you and the world in some sort of positive way. Why people feel the need to throw the whole “God” thing in there, I don’t know. I’m not into that. I just don’t get it. I’d rather believe in myself than another being. I’d rather know that I’m doing something because I want to do it – not because something more powerful than me made that my destiny. I don’t like listening to too many people. I just want to “do me,” as they say. Why is that so difficult? I just wonder why other people don’t feel the same way. Do they like the idea of being controlled? I think being told that there is a God who predetermined my destiny is the biggest insult someone could lay on me. Why would I ever want to be told that I don’t control my own actions? I am in charge of my own life, or at least I would like to think that I am. And if I’ll never know, then so be it, but I’m happy thinking what I do now.